| i kind of feel like things are falling apart....im tired and thats a huge part of it. but i am so sick of life right now and i am desperately in need of a way to make money next year. i wish i wouldnt of told all those parents no..i have got to start going to bed before 2
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| Lilly is one today...and i am sad
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| Lilly is less than a week away from ONE...holy crap how is that even possible?? I kind of want to cry but I also am happy to celebrate. This has been a long year all around. A lot going on and a lot of stress.
She had her first trip to the aquatic park today and loved it! She was just like Brett. Kept trying to put her face all the way under and totally brave. So sad. She is so big :( Her hair is so insanely blonde and she is getting a cute little baby tan. She actually doesn't mind putting on sunscreen which is nice. Brett doesn't have the patience to wait on the sunscreen. You have to put it on him while he runs..lol...Brett is ridiculously ok with the water. He was mad because he couldn't go off the diving board :). As hard as it is to believe Lilly is almost one its even harder to believe he is almost 4. I am so glad he has a late birthday and is still 2 years from school. I wish I would of planned Lilly a late birthday. Although I cant promise that she is going to Kindergarten at 5. I would like to keep her till 6. We shall see what kind of kid she turns out to be.
Brett has been having a really hard time digesting the fact that Lilly's birthday is coming up. The first little signs of jealousy. He wants presents and cake. We have started working on his party to calm him down even though it isnt until August. He wants to have a hot wheels party so we have ordered all the plates and decor. We even got a really cool big plastic poster thing that is a car with a driver. The drivers head is cut out so that you stand behind it and look like you are driving. We are also planning tricycle races. Should be fun!!! lol
Brett finally started missing school this week. I am glad I kept him out for the summer. His school has a summer session but I was scared it would be to much and I think it would of been. We have been doing plenty of learning on our own. I am all about field trips :). He is doing really good with his Alphabet writing book also so thats good.
Ok so as always this is boring!
Tomorrow we have a birhday party and wedding and then Sunday is fathers day and a friend of mine is doing Lilly's first birthday pics in my in laws yard. Should be a good weekend!
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| EDIT: SO I AM HAPPY TO SAY THAT A WEEK AFTER POSTING THIS I HAVE LOST 5 LBS...NOTHING SPECIAL BUT SOMETHING NONE THE LESS. I WAS HAPPY
so i have been working my butt off all week walking and changing the way i eat but at the end of the day i cant sleep and i am hungry. i dont know why i cant sleep...its been like that for a few months but when i cant sleep i just want to eat because no one is online and its something to do. its stressful. i really want to lose 10 lbs by Lillys first birthday party. i am trying to be realistic in this because well i do not have a very healthy attitude twords weight loss. i am just as likely to just stop eating than i am of eating right but i really want to do this. i have to stop thinking well but i want another kid so why bother...especially since Jeff really doesn't want anymore. i really want to lose more than that but i figured i may as well start slow. so anyway this is boring to all i am sure...
good night
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